Quiet
It's been quiet around here because I took yesterday off work. Tuesday night I was feeling a lot of stress about my application essays and wanted to spend some quality time on them. The majority of the day was spent writing though I did find time to complete a few other necessary tasks (like washing sheets).
Writing these essays has been very discouraging to me. It's not that I can't write. (As I seem to write here all the time...though there might be some question to the quality...) It's that I get so bogged down with how I think the admissions committee would want me to write that I start writing poorly. The stuff I wrote yesterday wasn't a very good indicator of how I write. To me, that's really frustrating. But I've enlisted the help of a few people and they are all making wonderful suggestions. A little more work and this will all be over and done with. If I can make it that long.
I had an epiphany last night. I realized that it's not my writing that I'm having a hard time with but the essay topics. I can write easily when it is a topic I'm interested in or feel strongly about. Though I'm very interested in my future and what an MBA can do to make it better; I'm not particularly good at putting it into words. I'm not in rah-rah mode where I'm all excited to be going back to school. Getting an MBA isn't a lifelong dream that I've been saving my allowance for since I was 5. Rather, it just seems like a smart career move when all things are considered. That's the honest truth. I'm just not convinced that an admissions committee would want to hear that. So I must enter the phase of embellishment - making my future look better than I currently feel about it.
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