End of the Week

This week has been a killer. Let me just a moment to remind myself how crappy it is to go back to work after taking 2 weeks of vacation. The next time I think about taking a long vacation, which would be next year at the earliest since all my vacation time is used, I need to think again. Don't get me wrong, it was absolutely fabulous to go to Alaska and spend time with my family, but coming back to work was horrible. My job isn't horrible and I love the people I work with, but two weeks of work piled up waiting for you to come back is horrible. All week I've been working my butt off trying to make a dent in it. I feel like I did fairly well, but I know I missed something. (I hate that feeling.)

In addition to all the work piled up, I had finals. Oh yeah, nothing like coming back and after working a 10 hour day hitting the books for hours. (I shouldn't complain, some people always work 10 hours days...it's the exception not the rule for me.) The final on Monday was long, but I felt pretty confident in my answers. Part of the reason it was so long was I wrote one whole essay on the completely wrong theory. It wasn't until I went back to check my work that I realized and had to re-write the whole thing. Yeah, I'm stupid and didn't reread the question before starting to write. Needless to say, it'll be a long, long time before that happens again.

The final on Thursday was a completely different story. I went in feeling like I had studied hard and really increased my knowledge before the exam. I certainly hadn't mastered the whole subject and was not an expert, but felt I could at least pass the exam. I left the test feeling stupid. It was so awful it was all I could do not to break down right then and there during the test. Instead, I waited to get to my car before shedding tears. It was a good release after the week I've had.

I thought that Friday would be my salvation, but it wasn't. First, Kevin didn't come down. Second, everything at work blew up. It just wasn't my day. So I crawled into bed to sleep hoping that would make it better. Par for the course, I woke up at 4:30am worrying and unable to sleep. So here I am, documenting what a crappy week this has been so I'll think twice about taking a long vacation. Mostly, I'm just complaining, because it's theraputic.

I can only hope that next week contains some more positive energy than this week. I'll be travelling to Arizona for work Monday through Friday, then I'll be in Denver for the weekend to visit Summer and Greg. At least I'll be able to wrap up the week with good, good friends. And on the lighter side, this weekend just started so maybe it can contain some good too. I'll just have to find it.

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