Ryan 9

Foreword: In 2004, I kept these posts on a separate blog. I wanted a place to write about my true feelings about Ryan that no one else would read. In 2007, I revisited these posts. and decided to add them to the archives. It's part of my past that is worth remembering especially the honesty with which I wrote these posts.

Last night Ryan said he was worried about my visit. He worried that he would get used to having me around. Totally sweet.

I can feel myself pulling back a bit. I'm analyzing every conversation we have. I should chill out and just enjoy the company. He's way cooler than all men I've interacted with lately.