Broke Up

I broke up with Kevin about four weeks ago. We'd been together for two years. It was a good two years, and I have no regrets. Kevin is a wonderful man, but I don't believe he is the man I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. It's hard to explain, but it's just something I know deep down inside me.

The breakup has been really hard on both of us. I feel like I've lost my best friend. I have. We were talking for a couple weeks afterwards, but it was too hard. We need some space between us. I still cry about it sometimes, but I know I've made the right decision. I don't think it's fair to continue on in a relationship that I know isn't leading to a longer term commitment.

Kevin has asked me why I feel this way and what we can do to change it. It's hard for me to say that there's nothing we can do. It's just something I feel. Kevin doesn't believe love works like that so he doesn't understand. I don't know any different way to explain it.

I wish it didn't feel like this.